The Girlie Show

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 15:14:15 GMT

I'm changing journal's.

If you would like to be part of my new better written more personal and close knit journal please add me and I shall add you back.

My aim is for people to unadd me if they feel no need for me on their list.

This way, I can also manage to comment on people's journals who actually want to read my journal, etc......

Thank you for your time

two_story_town

FRIENDS CUT

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 20:30:15 GMT

unexpected but hey, please take me off your list, no hard feelings, etc.

aminutedream
aw_bats
i_luv_brandon32
katebag
mdbsavage2000
panickklondon
suigenerisx

Reasons being, never updating or nothing in common.....one being, the journal isn't in use but still has me added.

Thanks

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 18:56:18 GMT

Too much stuff to write in an update so i will soon....when i have more energy....

Talking about:

-Ann summers party
-Paris, including, midgets, sun, hotel, food+drink, pretty buildings, etc
-New job
-Plans

Stolen from Wartimecouture

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 18:32:43 GMT

1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? half open

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? most of the time

3. Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room? yes

4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? nope although i helped move one once

5. Do you like to use post-it notes? no, because i always lose them

6. Do you cut out coupons and not use them? no.....

7. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? bear

9. Do you always smile for pictures? i usually pull a stupid face

10. What is your biggest pet peeve? loadsa things

11. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? out

12. Do you ever count your steps when you walk? if i'm really bored

13. Have you ever peed in the woods? yes, many a time

14. Do you ever jump up and down to make your privates bounce? lol, not that i can remember

15. Do you chew your pens and pencils? nope, horrible taste

16. How many people have you slept with this week? one

17. Do you like popcorn from those big tins? what big tins?

18. What is your "Song of the week"? i don't really have one....i guess it could be bon jovi-last man standing or a new song would be....i don't know

19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink? ditto, who cares

20. Do you still watch cartoons? of course

21. Whats your favorite scary movie? none of them

22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? i wouldn't bury it, are you kidding?! What's the point in that?

23. What drink do you have with dinner? water usually

24. What do you dip a chicken nugget in? my mouth?

25. What is your favorite food/cuisine? italian

26. What movies could you watch over and over and still love? legally blonde 1+2

27. Last person you kissed/kissed you? mum? Gordo?

28. Were you ever a boy/girl scout? brownie, for about a week

29. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? maybe pose in underwear or be covered up....

30. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? about a 3 days ago

31. Can you change the oil on a car? no

32. Ever gotten a speeding ticket? no

33. Ran out of gas? no

34. Favorite kind of sandwich?: ham and cheese and slad

35. Best thing to eat for breakfast? yoghurt, fresh crusty roll

36. What is your usual bedtime? between 9pm-2am

37. Are you lazy? can be

38. When you were a kid what did you dress up as for halloween? witch

40. How many languages can you speak? depends, i speak French, English fluent, some sign language, basic spanish, more than basic japanese, and a little bit of german from what i can remember

41. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? yes, to elle

42..Which are better legos or lincoln logs? what the hell are lincoln logs?

43. Are you stubborn? yep

44. Who is better...Leno or Letterman? not sure

45. Ever watch soap operas? yep

46. Afraid of heights? afriad of falling from them

47. Sing in the car? yup

48. Dance in the shower? not really enough room to dance

49. Dance in the car? occasionally

50. Ever used a gun? not a proper one

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? erm...mum and dad's wedding anniversary, almost 2 years ago

52. Are musicals cheesy? no

53. Is Christmas stressful? with work it is

54. Ever eat a pierogie? a what?

55. Favorite type of fruit pie? fruit...pie?

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? teacher

57. Do you believe in ghosts? ......rather not say

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? all the time

59. Take a vitamin daily? yep

60. Wear slippers? no

61. Wear a bath robe? no

62. What do you wear to bed? short shorts and a vest top or i sleep naked

63. First concert? meat loaf maybe, possibly bryan adams

64. Walmart, K-mart, Target? don't have any!

65. Nike or Adidas? nike

66.Cheetos Or Fritos? neither

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? both

68. Ever hear of "gorp"? no

69. Ever take dance lessons? yes...tap, ballet

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? no

71. Can you curl your tongue? yes

72. Ever won a spelling bee? don't have spelling bee in this country

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? yep, few times

74. Own any record albums? no, only a single, although the people own lots

75. Own a record player?
yes

76. Regularly burn incense? kinda regularly

77. Ever been in love? i am in love

78. Who would you like to see in concert? inme, again

79. What was your last concert you saw? bryan adams

80. Hot tea or cold tea?
hot tea

81. Tea or coffee?
tea

82. Favorite kind of cookie? chocolate, peanut butter

83. Can you swim well? not at all

84. Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose? yes

85. Are you patient?no

86. DJ or band at a wedding? band

87. Ever won a contest?
yes

88. Ever have plastic surgery?
nope

89. Green or black olives?
neither

90. Can you knit or crochet?
knit

91. Best room for a fireplace? lounge

92. Do you want to get married?
sure

93. If married, how long have you been married?

94. Who was your HS crush? erm...everyone i went out with?

95. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
nope

96. Do you have kids?
god no

97. Do you want kids? not really

98. Whats your favorite color? blue and pink

99. Do you miss anyone right now? yes

100. Who do you wanna see right now? linda

Since Summer started:

1. Have you had more than 5 different boyfriends/girlfriends? no, just the one

2. Have you had your birthday? yes

3. Been to church? yep, notre dame

4. Cried yet? yes

5. Did someone close to you pass away? no

6. Stayed up all night? not all night but slept at one, woke at 5

7. Drank starbucks? no

8. Went shopping? yes

9. Went camping? yes

10. Been to the beach? yes

11. Bought something for over $200?
i don't know the worth of dollars...but i bought a holiday for £110

12. Met someone new? yes

13. Been out of state? yes?

14. Gone Snowboarding? no

15. Slept in someone else's bed? not technically

16. Snuck someone over? ....yes

17. Snuck out of your own house? haha, yes

18. Been to a bar? yes

19. Cheated? cheated what? fate? no

20. Gotten a car? no

21. Gone over your cell phone bill? no

22.Been called a tease?
yes

23. Drove somewhere?
not personally

24. Done something you regret?
no

[[Lasts...]]

Thing you bought? a cheeseburger

Person you hugged? rob henry

Last person to call you? mike from work, wanker

Last time you took a bath? not sure

When was the last time you felt stupid? earlier

Who was the last person who made you cry? it doesn't matter

Who was the last person who you watched a movie with? emma, sister

Who was the last person you danced with? christy probably

Who makes you smile most? christy, dan, gordo

What did you do today? got up, checked train times, went to reading, came back, went to new job, came home

Song that's stuck in your head right now?
i haven't got one in my head

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 21:22:44 GMT

I hate being sad, so much.

I just want my mum to come back home and make everything better again.

I can't believe how unreliable my best friend has become, it's almost like I'm in the background now and not needed or wanted.

I also don't like how lonely I feel, it's because I miss my mum, she listens to what I say, cares and makes time for me.

I don't want to cry because I'm by myself, fact is, I don't think there's any other way.

Maybe the emogs can save me *smiles*

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 19:59:06 GMT

don't you think it's funny how cat's walk with their tails right up in the air?

It's like it has a mind of its own

stolen from loosing_gravity

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 16:58:55 GMT

Pay no attention to what the critics say; there has never been set up a statue in honor of a critic.
-Jean Sibelius

1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
4) Tag five LJ friends.

* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days. (half true)
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I love to play video games.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.
* I curse sometimes.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
*I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast. sometimes
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a cell phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex.
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.

* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I would die for my best friends.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I am happy at this moment.
* I'm obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Republican.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job.
* I am comfortable with who I am right now. Most of the time.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state. almost there
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people.
* I adore bright colors.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in.
* I talk in my sleep.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring. sometimes
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. in my mind i am
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries or provinces.
* I am extremely flexible. sometimes
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
* Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (Unless were talking about a mortal enemy)
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. (To some extent except I consider ghosts to be spirits)
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have traveled on more than one continent.
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. ( This is half true, but I wish I wasn't true at all)
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have no piercing.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro game consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish.
* I have written/read erotic stories.
* I am compulsively honest.
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird. of time.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. sometimes
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* Had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing.
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
* I've gone skinny-dipping.
* I've performed in three plays, all of them Shakespeare.
* I enjoy burritos.
* I'm Irish and lovin' it.
* I have a thing for redheads.
* I am a twin!
* Most times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
* Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (depends on what exactly it is)
* I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
* I wish I could do High School all over again.
* I have big interest swings every year.
* I have loved Pokemon since the beginning and continue to do so.
* I am the only one who can navigate my room without stepping on something.
* There's no genre of music I dislike.
* I've read every work written by my favorite author(s).
* No matter how much I sleep, I'm always tired.
* I'd rather eat out than cook.
* I have higher expectations of myself than others seem to.
* I work in tech support
* I have a habit of spending more money then I usually have.
* I know what it's like to fly on the trapeze.
* I fantasize about things I've done in the way I think I should've done them.
* I like cheese.
* I love surfing

Sun

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 15:14:51 GMT

*relieved*

Got my information through for Paris on Sunday.

I need to be there for about 9 in the morning....

It's nice that it's raining....so good.

I missed a call from my mum yesterday... =( Not fair. Then she said 'I'll call you tomorrow when we're in Lisbon' And I felt resentful because I was like 'I want to be in Lisbon.'

Went for a second interview at F&B's today.

The guy asked me what my short term plans were and in the back of my mind I was thinking 'Going to uni and collge' but obviously I'm meant to be doing this permanantly so I was like, yes, I don't know, maybe some travelling...

Haha.

And I got a thing through the post from London this morning and I really want to go there now for my foundation...I can still accept it...I'm getting depressed.

Also getting stressed thinking about what uni to go to....I could go to somerset....I don't even know how to spell it properly but hell, I'm clueless, more uni's should do the course I want to do.

Bugger that, all uni's should do what I want to do.

And some pictures for today:

where I was at the weekend.

Where I will be this weekend.

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 14:20:28 GMT

Reeeealy bored.

I have things to do.....but hell, it's way too hot.

I have a cat round my legs, again.

I only just hoovered up all the cat fur lying around.

I think the cat's hot too.

Love it!

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 20:31:13 GMT

So, this week has been pretty good. Just been working an stuffs.

Wednesday night Gordo came over and eventually stayed over....

Wednesday and Thursday I was super ill again so went to the doctors complaining on thursday morning, got loadsa drugs, ended up drugged to my eyeballs when i went into town to buy stuff for the bbq.

I felt drunk and tired, it was horrible.

Anyhow, eventually this nice man helped me with my shopping to my house, went inside and wanted to sleep.
I considered cancelling but there would be no point, if i cancelled things everytime i was ill i'd end up in bed all the time.

So that was pretty fun too, everyone came round, had a laugh.

When they went i tidied up, had to pack to go to Cornwall-Perranporth for the weekend, haha.

Got a phone call from my parents at midnight just as i was trying to sleep, so i spoke to my mum for a while and confirmed i was going away and stuff.

Then i went to sleep and kept waking up sweating tonnes and getting cold, stupid illness.

Got up at 5, met brad and phil and steve, well, newly met brad and phil, they were uber cool =)

Steve needs to send me photos to:

wendylr@tesco.net

cheers...

Went surfing, had a sweet 6"11 board, it was so nice.

Waves were awesome, weather was awesome, camping was good because it didn't rain.

Had a laugh.

Got to see my good friend Josef.

Came back today and cooked for my sister and her girlfriend, kim. Yummy stir-fry.

they left and i have two cats following me round the house everywhere.....hmmmm....

Now, I'm just kinda bored and need to tidy the house, and all my stuff up from camping, and i need to shut loadsa doors and windows and want to see Gordo =(

Love to all, will be commenting soon.

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 20:07:20 GMT

*ahem*

clearing this up now.

I would not bother leaving an annoymous comment on lewis's journal about him and liz so please don't think i would.

People know my opinion on the matter and it's not a secret and it's nothing personal as it was more a broad opinion that i believe that people this young who get engaged don't tend to end up getting married.

I however am not saying that it would not last, etc, i'm just saying it usually doesn't happen and obviously it does sometimes.

And if it does then I hope they/you are both happy.

I am not saying this to cause arguments, i am just clearing it up.

Thank you.

Plans

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 19:47:39 GMT

Dude, I have my surrogate cat keeping me company at the moment...(it's sitting playing with a baloon at the moment.)

I'm cooking a bbq for everyone tomorrow, haha, that's gonna be fun....

Going shopping for that tomorrow.

Friday I'm going to newquay for the weekend, well or near there because someone (i.e. me did) some calling ahead and found out we can't go to the place intended but do know areas where these places are good.

Then sunday night i'm cooking for my sister and her girlfriend...that's one week down and one to go.

Lalalala....

I don't really have much to say....apart from my throat is killing me again, grrness, i'm sure it's leaving a horrible taste in my mouth...
Apparently I have to go to the doctor as well because well...it's a long and yucky story but anyhow, my pharmacist told me i should have referred myself to a doctor..haha.

However, it's annoying me to talk so it needs to piss off....

I've done lots of internet shopping...this is just a couple of things i now have:

Anyhow, gonna go now, I'm sure I have my house to tidy, haha.

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 12:08:34 GMT

I had the funniest dream last night, Steve Stanley was in a wheel chair because he'd broken his leg or something and he was dressed as a cigarette! He had this hat on which was the burning ash.

This is seriously amusing me right now.

Today I'm listening to: Dragon Ash, 12 stones and System of a Down.

I'm also totally loving muse's new single supermassive black hole.

I've been internet shopping crazy this last week...whoops....

Well....let's see, I got my FIRST tattoo yesterday! Wooo!

It's the most strangest thing ever! it's like I have to keep telling myself, it's going to be there forever!

I got a little pink star at the top of my leg.

I was in there for about 15/20 minutes but it seemed to go quicker than that.
I was just focusing on other things, well trying to, it's a bit hard when you can feel a needle going into your leg.

The thing that amused me the most is that it felt like he was colouring it in when he had taken it away to get more colour, the colouring is totally not painful at all, it's like a hard vibration, it's funny.

The outline does hurt though but once you just ignore it and get used to it, it's fine. Madness!

But anyhow, I'm planning my next one, I've decided to get one around my belly button, can't wait!

What else, well, up until this morning I had 4 jobs, one from New Look, one from UCI/odean and one from frankie and benny's as well as my existing one at superdrug pharmacy.

So anyhow, I've decided to take frankie and benny's for week days and stick to superdrug for weekends, especially as they're going to train me in a NVQ in retail, bonus, free education!

Ladidah, my parents have gone away for 2 weeks, I should be rejoycing right? Free house for 2 weeks? To be honest it doesn't really bother me, i go out and do what i want when i want anyway....
I'm basically just gonna miss my mum =(
And i hate being alone in my house, there's just something so lonely and boring about it...i don't like not having any company.

But she did say anyone can stay around or whatever so yeah....

The other good thing is that i don't have to worry about hiding this tattoo now and it can heal ok and i can be in pain and not worry about hiding my pain...haha.

anyways, gonna go now.

Hope everyone's ok, and i'm sorry i haven't been commenting.

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 09:54:34 GMT

Guys, I promise I haven't forgotten about you all!

I'm just really busy working at the moment and what not so I haven't been on the net!

Will comment real soon! xxxx

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 12:49:59 GMT

And haha, grace is up for eviction

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 12:58:49 GMT

Bon Jovi were fucking awesome last night. They are still yet to be beaten by anyone.

And they played for 3 hours like last time I saw them. Jon had hayfever though, bless.

Seeing Bryan Adams tonight then.

Got an interview for New Look on Saturday morning, great, my birthday! It's alright because it's first thing though.

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 12:19:04 GMT

Had a pretty awesome day yesterday.

Went to the beach as it was lovely and sunny = ) And didn't think it was sunny enough to get tanned or burned...how wrong was I? Haha.

Basically I have this really annoying tan mark on my back from my vest top and this label was sticking out meaning YES a stupid rectangle. Then below that from where I took my top down I have another line...how stupid does my back look at the moment? Very.

Anyhow, I also have flushed cheeks at the moment too but I don't mind because I like having some colour =)

Anyhow, so in the evening went out with Christy and El to see United 93.

NOW I do not agree AT ALL about the film being made as I think it's stupid and someone's making money from a tragedy. But we wanted to see it to get an opinion on it, a bit like why I watched the thing on tv about the moor's murderers.

Basically it was terribly written, I thought that as soon as it started. It is a documentarty style film. However, there was nothing new in that film that you wouldn't have known from watching the new apart from the fact it focused on a plane that didn't reach its target.

It focused a lot on the airport as well and made me aware of how stupid everything was and they basically knew what was happening and didn't have permission to shoot down the planes in case they were wrong. And even when they did get permission they still didn't do it for the same reason.

The film identified waaay too much with the hijackers, and I mean that, it was basically based around them, you were made to actually feel sorry for them and that really shouldn't have been how it was portrayed.

I got angry because they had a part where they were sitting in the terminal listening to people talking on their phones-making plans, I don't know how anyone can be that evil to know that they're going to kill all those people.

Also there was a line in it that one of the passengers said 'something isn't right' despite the fact one man was standing with a bomb, the plane had already dropped considerably and risen again, someone had been stabbed and they were holding them hostage. How stupid is that??

And me and Christy seemed to be the only one's crying....

I think they should have shown more phone calls home calling about love, there were some and it was well done.

I'm just still annoyed how you were made to feel sorry for these guys.

Grrr.

Anyhow, we walked home as it was super warm but i got really bad hayfever, gah! text steve for a bit then went to sleep.

Now I need to go into town to see my bank and ask them for some money, going into frankie and benny's to ask for a job and need to pay in a cheque and send off a couple of CV's.

Later I have Japanese, although I forgot that until about ten minutes ago.

Better go.

ciao.

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 20:28:48 GMT

And in a slightly more upbeat entry.

I have this surrogate cat at the moment and it's so sweet but we can't really let it keep coming in because it just keeps coming in and stuff. We don't feed it or anything, he just wants fuss, he doesn't get much attention with his folks, hehe.

The weather was so nice yesterday and today, it's cool.

Went to London yesterday and went to portobella road market for the first time ever and woah! Fallen in love a bit, it's so awesome! I bought some peppers, haha.

I also bought a bunch of other stuff like this cute top and some general cute things and some Barry M make up...I got a bright orange dazzle dust and a neon yellow eyeliner.

Got the next two saturday's off, awesome.

This Saturday is my birthday....I can tell it's gonna be my friends who make it worthwhile, talking of which, I need to send out an email.....
What's danielle, jenny and helen's email? Thanks guys....

Big brother is on in a bit then I think I'm gonna watch daredevil but I might be going out depending on a few things.

12 stones are awesome = )

Sorry for the rant

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 19:31:37 GMT

It really, really, really pisses me off soo much when people cancel on me. Like, immensely.

It's because I rarely cancel on people myself, I don't do it, I can't do it, if I make plans I stick to them, I don't just change things around.

It just makes me soo angry because it just wrecks any plans I have not to mention I get really, really(etc)... disappointed.

It really fucks me off to no end.

so then I started crying. And now I'm just really pissed off and really annoyed.

Especially seeming as Gordo completely screwed up my sleep last night because he was fucking pissed and told me he couldn't get in his house because he didn't have a key when he did.

I really just wanna be done with it all.

And all he does is just ignore it, doesn't even bother to have an argument about it, just ignores my annoyance and then later on uses it against me.

Grrr.

Wed, 31 May 2006 19:07:23 GMT

Finally have Paris booked, although it's cost far too much for my liking at £110 pounds each.

Nevermind.

Also, got a bank appointment to upgrade my account so i can get an overdraft and whatnot to help me out with some funds, can't go wrong, well, obviously I have to get another job first but even if I don't i'll have enough coming in in august time to pay it off, awesome.

Me and Gordina have decided we're probably gonna give it another go but we're waiting til we go to Paris to make it official I guess so until then we're both free agents.

Bonus.

Christy isn't going to be too happy.

Nevermind.

Wed, 31 May 2006 11:57:16 GMT

Ok guys, I finally went back about 100 entries on my friends page and commented on people's journals so keep a look out!

I'm finally feeling better, saturday and sunday were a nightmare for breathing and eating, thank you for the comments!

I can't do anything about being ill anymore, I'm going to have them taken out, that's the only thing I can wait for but I have another 6 months to wait for that.

It's actually really annoying because by the time that happens it will be winter-my ill season which means they have to put it off an everything. I'm also slightly worried as last year I stopped being ill in about march time, now it's basically june, it sucks.

So, went to Reading yesterday, checked up on the job progress, basically if I haven't heard anything by the end of the week I'm fucked.
I'm going into town today to check out overdrafts, accounts, etc.

Booking Paris is turning into a bit of a pain as well because I'm gonna have to ring up and book it, so much effort.

Tomorrow I'm going to see my gran to get my inheritance. Friday I'm going to London! Yay!
Then next wednesday is bon jovi, the thursday is bryan adams and the friday is my birthday celebrations.

i'm in the middle of writing loadsa letters too, I just need to send them out when I get some money! Arg!

I'm seeing Steve sometime soon. Sighs. I don't know what to do at all.
Gordo says he still loves me and I think I still love him too.
Doesn't that mean we should be together?
We're having little reviews every couple of weeks, it'll be great, we can have bar charts an stuff! Haha.
Anyhow, there's no point in worrying about it.

Went to Christy's yesterday night for spag bol and borrowed some banging tunes off her-funky house and some other band.....

Anyhow, I gotta go as I probably got messages to reply to an stuff.

what does everyone do when they're bored?

Sat, 27 May 2006 20:15:20 GMT

I woke up at 6am this morning and could not breathe because my mouth was full of mucas and my tonsils were huge. And I started crying.

Then between 7-8 I tried calling work 5 times to tell them I wouldn't be coming in because I could barely talk and when I say not being able to talk I don't mean just because of the pain, I also mean because my tonsils were restricting the sounds I could make.

So anyhow, between half 1 this morning and now I've had 10 hours sleep and I'm tired again but if I go to sleep now I might wake up again in a few hours and I just want to sleep through the night and wake up tomorrow morning fine and dandy.

However, one nice thing is that I've had 2 bowel's of ice cream, woo, raspberry ripple.

This morning was bad though as my whole body just felt so heavy and achy. Lifting the spoon to eat my ice cream made me tired.

Anyhow my other problem at the moment is that best friend/fuck buddy/ex boyfriend since about 3 months ago has just told me he really likes me.
Why couldn't he have said something about 2 weeks ago before I met steve. However, he didn't really know himself.

Ga. Even though gordo is like the best thing that's ever happened to me, well roughly, and he's the most awesome person ever this week I've just been going off him.

I needed a distraction from my loving him, Steve is it, and he's really nice and so easy to talk to, etc, etc.

So now, over the summer I have to basically decide whether I want to go out with Gordo again. I don't feel very sexually attracted to him at the moment but that could be because of illness or just the fact that steve is my current crush or it could be because I feel weird kissing him when only 6 days ago I was kissing steve.

All this may sound so melodramatic but I hate trying to make a decision, I usually leave the decision up to fate or someone else. Great.

Photography Work

Wed, 24 May 2006 16:45:47 GMT

This is a really long daisy chain I made and then put down bush, then on a tree and then on grass.

Then I made a string of leaves, held together with thorns off a bush and put that against some heather, on a trelis(sp?) thing, hanging off a tree and then on the ground.

this is from a 'post secret' website and I like it:

And these are a couple of random ones for a photography project:

Wed, 24 May 2006 16:27:06 GMT

So, two people have added me being: deepdownwithin and: toy_squidle And I have no idea why so......

Anyhow. I'm loving the new primal scream song, country girl, at the moment. I realised now why the videa has to be sensored because she pukes up blood or just something red and she snorts coke.

I keep having weird dreams at the moment and it's bothering/annoying me. Last night I had a dream that we were in the BB house but we as a group were at some weird sorta theme park and went on loadsa rides and kept having to be checked in and lisa and pete were working in a shop and we had to be at the air port in about 10 minutes but we wanted to eat so we got off and went in their shop and i ordered a ham and tomato snadwich and started picking up sweets and a book, then i realised i needed some money but then realised i didn't have my cashcard then realised i had a fiver. Anyhow, that's to cut a long story short.

I've been sewing and revamping a skirt lately which has caused hell on my fingers from all the pushing up needles through hard denim and then end of the needle going through my skin, joys.
However, I am half way to an awesome skirt.

I'm really bored at the moment and I still have quite a bit of work to do. I need to draw myself naked about twenty times but don't have big enough paper or energy to sit looking into a mirror at myself naked and cold for about an hour.

Tue, 23 May 2006 10:50:25 GMT

p.s. sorry my entries haven't been too interesting as late, I don't have the energy to write anything thoughtful.