The Girlie Show

unexpected but hey, please take me off your list, no hard feelings, etc. 

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Reasons being, never updating or nothing in common.....one being, the journal isn't in use but still has me added.

Thanks

Too much stuff to write in an update so i will soon....when i have more energy....

Talking about:

-Ann summers party
-Paris, including, midgets, sun, hotel, food+drink, pretty buildings, etc
-New job
-Plans

I hate being sad, so much.

I just want my mum to come back home and make everything better again.

I can't believe how unreliable my best friend has become, it's almost like I'm in the background now and not needed or wanted.

I also don't like how lonely I feel, it's because I miss my mum, she listens to what I say, cares and makes time for me.

I don't want to cry because I'm by myself, fact is, I don't think there's any other way.

Maybe the emogs can save me *smiles*

don't you think it's funny how cat's walk with their tails right up in the air?

It's like it has a mind of its own

*relieved*

Got my information through for Paris on Sunday.

I need to be there for about 9 in the morning....

It's nice that it's raining....so good.


I missed a call from my mum yesterday... =( Not fair. Then she said 'I'll call you tomorrow when we're in Lisbon' And I felt resentful because I was like 'I want to be in Lisbon.'

Went for a second interview at F&B's today.

The guy asked me what my short term plans were and in the back of my mind I was thinking 'Going to uni and collge' but obviously I'm meant to be doing this permanantly so I was like, yes, I don't know, maybe some travelling...

Haha.


And I got a thing through the post from London this morning and I really want to go there now for my foundation...I can still accept it...I'm getting depressed.

Also getting stressed thinking about what uni to go to....I could go to somerset....I don't even know how to spell it properly but hell, I'm clueless, more uni's should do the course I want to do.

Bugger that, all uni's should do what I want to do.


And some pictures for today:



where I was at the weekend.



Where I will be this weekend.

Reeeealy bored.

I have things to do.....but hell, it's way too hot.

I have a cat round my legs, again. 

I only just hoovered up all the cat fur lying around.

I think the cat's hot too.

So, this week has been pretty good. Just been working an stuffs.

Wednesday night Gordo came over and eventually stayed over....

Wednesday and Thursday I was super ill again so went to the doctors complaining on thursday morning, got loadsa drugs, ended up drugged to my eyeballs when i went into town to buy stuff for the bbq.

I felt drunk and tired, it was horrible.

Anyhow, eventually this nice man helped me with my shopping to my house, went inside and wanted to sleep.
I considered cancelling but there would be no point, if i cancelled things everytime i was ill i'd end up in bed all the time.

So that was pretty fun too, everyone came round, had a laugh.

When they went i tidied up, had to pack to go to Cornwall-Perranporth for the weekend, haha.

Got a phone call from my parents at midnight just as i was trying to sleep, so i spoke to my mum for a while and confirmed i was going away and stuff.

Then i went to sleep and kept waking up sweating tonnes and getting cold, stupid illness.

Got up at 5, met brad and phil and steve, well, newly met brad and phil, they were uber cool =)

Steve needs to send me photos to:

wendylr@tesco.net

cheers...

Went surfing, had a sweet 6"11 board, it was so nice.

Waves were awesome, weather was awesome, camping was good because it didn't rain.

Had a laugh.

Got to see my good friend Josef.

Came back today and cooked for my sister and her girlfriend, kim. Yummy stir-fry.

they left and i have two cats following me round the house everywhere.....hmmmm....


Now, I'm just kinda bored and need to tidy the house, and all my stuff up from camping, and i need to shut loadsa doors and windows and want to see Gordo =(

Love to all, will be commenting soon.

*ahem*

clearing this up now.

I would not bother leaving an annoymous comment on lewis's journal about him and liz so please don't think i would.

People know my opinion on the matter and it's not a secret and it's nothing personal as it was more a broad opinion that i believe that people this young who get engaged don't tend to end up getting married.

I however am not saying that it would not last, etc, i'm just saying it usually doesn't happen and obviously it does sometimes.

And if it does then I hope they/you are both happy.

I am not saying this to cause arguments, i am just clearing it up.


Thank you.

Dude, I have my surrogate cat keeping me company at the moment...(it's sitting playing with a baloon at the moment.)

I'm cooking a bbq for everyone tomorrow, haha, that's gonna be fun....

Going shopping for that tomorrow.

Friday I'm going to newquay for the weekend, well or near there because someone (i.e. me did) some calling ahead and found out we can't go to the place intended but do know areas where these places are good.

Then sunday night i'm cooking for my sister and her girlfriend...that's one week down and one to go.

Lalalala....

I don't really have much to say....apart from my throat is killing me again, grrness, i'm sure it's leaving a horrible taste in my mouth...
Apparently I have to go to the doctor as well because well...it's a long and yucky story but anyhow, my pharmacist told me i should have referred myself to a doctor..haha.


However, it's annoying me to talk so it needs to piss off....


I've done lots of internet shopping...this is just a couple of things i now have:






Anyhow, gonna go now, I'm sure I have my house to tidy, haha.

I had the funniest dream last night, Steve Stanley was in a wheel chair because he'd broken his leg or something and he was dressed as a cigarette! He had this hat on which was the burning ash.

This is seriously amusing me right now.


Today I'm listening to: Dragon Ash, 12 stones and System of a Down.

I'm also totally loving muse's new single supermassive black hole.


I've been internet shopping crazy this last week...whoops....


Well....let's see, I got my FIRST tattoo yesterday! Wooo!

It's the most strangest thing ever! it's like I have to keep telling myself, it's going to be there forever!

I got a little pink star at the top of my leg.

I was in there for about 15/20 minutes but it seemed to go quicker than that.
I was just focusing on other things, well trying to, it's a bit hard when you can feel a needle going into your leg.

The thing that amused me the most is that it felt like he was colouring it in when he had taken it away to get more colour, the colouring is totally not painful at all, it's like a hard vibration, it's funny.

The outline does hurt though but once you just ignore it and get used to it, it's fine. Madness!

But anyhow, I'm planning my next one, I've decided to get one around my belly button, can't wait!


What else, well, up until this morning I had 4 jobs, one from New Look, one from UCI/odean and one from frankie and benny's as well as my existing one at superdrug pharmacy.

So anyhow, I've decided to take frankie and benny's for week days and stick to superdrug for weekends, especially as they're going to train me in a NVQ in retail, bonus, free education!


Ladidah, my parents have gone away for 2 weeks, I should be rejoycing right? Free house for 2 weeks? To be honest it doesn't really bother me, i go out and do what i want when i want anyway....
I'm basically just gonna miss my mum =(
And i hate being alone in my house, there's just something so lonely and boring about it...i don't like not having any company.

But she did say anyone can stay around or whatever so yeah....

The other good thing is that i don't have to worry about hiding this tattoo now and it can heal ok and i can be in pain and not worry about hiding my pain...haha.

anyways, gonna go now.

Hope everyone's ok, and i'm sorry i haven't been commenting.

Guys, I promise I haven't forgotten about you all! 

I'm just really busy working at the moment and what not so I haven't been on the net!

Will comment real soon! xxxx

And haha, grace is up for eviction

Bon Jovi were fucking awesome last night. They are still yet to be beaten by anyone.

And they played for 3 hours like last time I saw them. Jon had hayfever though, bless.


Seeing Bryan Adams tonight then.

Got an interview for New Look on Saturday morning, great, my birthday! It's alright because it's first thing though.

Had a pretty awesome day yesterday.

Went to the beach as it was lovely and sunny  = ) And didn't think it was sunny enough to get tanned or burned...how wrong was I? Haha.

Basically I have this really annoying tan mark on my back from my vest top and this label was sticking out meaning YES a stupid rectangle. Then below that from where I took my top down I have another line...how stupid does my back look at the moment? Very.

Anyhow, I also have flushed cheeks at the moment too but I don't mind because I like having some colour =)

Anyhow, so in the evening went out with Christy and El to see United 93.

NOW I do not agree AT ALL about the film being made as I think it's stupid and someone's making money from a tragedy. But we wanted to see it to get an opinion on it, a bit like why I watched the thing on tv about the moor's murderers.

Basically it was terribly written, I thought that as soon as it started. It is a documentarty style film. However, there was nothing new in that film that you wouldn't have known from watching the new apart from the fact it focused on a plane that didn't reach its target.

It focused a lot on the airport as well and made me aware of how stupid everything was and they basically knew what was happening and didn't have permission to shoot down the planes in case they were wrong. And even when they did get permission they still didn't do it for the same reason.

The film identified waaay too much with the hijackers, and I mean that, it was basically based around them, you were made to actually feel sorry for them and that really shouldn't have been how it was portrayed.

I got angry because they had a part where they were sitting in the terminal listening to people talking on their phones-making plans, I don't know how anyone can be that evil to know that they're going to kill all those people.

Also there was a line in it that one of the passengers said 'something isn't right' despite the fact one man was standing with a bomb, the plane had already dropped considerably and risen again, someone had been stabbed and they were holding them hostage. How stupid is that??

And me and Christy seemed to be the only one's crying....

I think they should have shown more phone calls home calling about love, there were some and it was well done.

I'm just still annoyed how you were made to feel sorry for these guys.

Grrr.

Anyhow, we walked home as it was super warm but i got really bad hayfever, gah! text steve for a bit then went to sleep.

Now I need to go into town to see my bank and ask them for some money, going into frankie and benny's to ask for a job and need to pay in a cheque and send off a couple of CV's.

Later I have Japanese, although I forgot that until about ten minutes ago.

Better go.

ciao.

And in a slightly more upbeat entry.

I have this surrogate cat at the moment and it's so sweet but we can't really let it keep coming in because it just keeps coming in and stuff. We don't feed it or anything, he just wants fuss, he doesn't get much attention with his folks, hehe.

The weather was so nice yesterday and today, it's cool.

Went to London yesterday and went to portobella road market for the first time ever and woah! Fallen in love a bit, it's so awesome! I bought some peppers, haha.

I also bought a bunch of other stuff like this cute top and some general cute things and some Barry M make up...I got a bright orange dazzle dust and a neon yellow eyeliner.

Got the next two saturday's off, awesome.

This Saturday is my birthday....I can tell it's gonna be my friends who make it worthwhile, talking of which, I need to send out an email.....
What's danielle, jenny and helen's email? Thanks guys....

Big brother is on in a bit then I think I'm gonna watch daredevil but I might be going out depending on a few things.

12 stones are awesome = )

It really, really, really pisses me off soo much when people cancel on me. Like, immensely.

It's because I rarely cancel on people myself, I don't do it, I can't do it, if I make plans I stick to them, I don't just change things around.

It just makes me soo angry because it just wrecks any plans I have not to mention I get really, really(etc)... disappointed.


It really fucks me off to no end.



so then I started crying. And now I'm just really pissed off and really annoyed.

Especially seeming as Gordo completely screwed up my sleep last night because he was fucking pissed and told me he couldn't get in his house because he didn't have a key when he did. 


I really just wanna be done with it all.

And all he does is just ignore it, doesn't even bother to have an argument about it, just ignores my annoyance and then later on uses it against me.

Grrr.

Finally have Paris booked, although it's cost far too much for my liking at £110 pounds each.

Nevermind.

Also, got a bank appointment to upgrade my account so i can get an overdraft and whatnot to help me out with some funds, can't go wrong, well, obviously I have to get another job first but even if I don't i'll have enough coming in in august time to pay it off, awesome.


Me and Gordina have decided we're probably gonna give it another go but we're waiting til we go to Paris to make it official I guess so until then we're both free agents.

Bonus.

Christy isn't going to be too happy.

Nevermind.